Reclaimed identity and pierced nipples

Growing up in a fairly conservative family, I had no exposure to piercings. As I got older, I became aware of standard ear piercings, and was immediately fascinated that people would have pieces of metal inserted into themselves for appearance.

Unfortunately going to a boy's school meant that I missed the usual period where many females would have their ears pierced. Nevertheless my fascination grew over the years, as did my interest in piercings in other locations.

Some years after school, I married and settled down. My wife at the time had pierced ears, however, had no interest in piercings anywhere else – in fact she was repressed in a number of ways – including limiting the ways in which I was permitted to express myself.

When things began to fall apart in the relationship, I decided to claim back some of my own identity, by piercing myself.

It was important that I pierced myself because I felt that it was a critical part of being able to take back control of my life, and to do something that was just for myself.

I began to do some research on the internet, and discovered an online store, from which I purchased some supplies, and ended up piercing my frenum.

I thought this would be the first and last piercing – but thankfully I was wrong.

Since leaving my wife, I met a more progressive woman, with much more liberal ideas in relation to many things, including body modification. This has changed my life.

One day we were talking about piercings, and she remarked that she found nipple rings more attractive on guys than girls.

That set me thinking about something I would never have dreamed of doing up until that point in my life – piercing my nipples.

After giving it some serious thought over a few weeks, I decided to give it a go. I purchased a pair of 14ga barbells and some catheter needles from an online store, and set about piercing myself.

Friday after work, I settled in at home to do the deed. I cleaned my chest area meticulously with Alcohol, and laid out my equipment on the table in front of me. Examining my nipples, I noted that their size meant I would need to pierce them a little deeper than the nipple itself as I was scared that I might lose them if there was insufficient skin to hold the piercing.

I marked the entry and exit holes with a non-toxic marker, and clamped the first nipple using a clamp I had previously used for hobbies, but had first soaked in alcohol. By this time, the endorphins were firing to such an extent, that I felt absolutely no pain pushing the needle through. I was surprised how much force it took to do, but in another sense, surprised how it slid through without pinching or blood going everywhere as I had imagined it would. I guess if I had proper equipment I wouldn't have had to juggle everything at once (holding the clamp, pushing the needle through etc), but I really wanted to control the piercing myself.

I removed the metal needle from the catheter, cut the white plastic sleeve, and threaded the barbell through the piercing by inserting it into the sleeve and pulling it out slowly.

By this time, the nipple began to sting somewhat, but I absolutely loved the look of the barbell, and knew I did the right thing. I decided to continue to pierce my other nipple.

Repeating the procedure, I knew I was in trouble when I first touched the second needle to my nipple. The feeling was one of intense pain, as obviously the endorphins had greatly subsided. I kind of knew this would be the case when I clamped the nipple, and felt an allmighty pinch, unlike the first.

I had gone too far to pull back, so steadied myself and went ahead and pushed the needle through. After what was probably 5 seconds, but seemed like 5 minutes, the point of the needle emerged on the other side of the nipple, and I inserted the second barbell.

After screwing on the balls, I was on top of the world. the rush was incredible, and didn't go away for at least the next hour.

After a few hours, I showered, and following the aftercare instructions I found on the web, washed with antibacterial soap, did a salt soak and went to bed.

I had a restless night sleep, as I had the constant feeling that someone was firmly pinching my nipples, but I've got to say not a lot of pain.

That was yesterday. Today the nipples are a little sore and enlarged, but feel great. Every time a breeze blows through the house, I can feel the nipples tighten against the jewellery, and I know I did the right thing. My partner couldn't watch me doing it, but thinks they look great too. We can't wait until they are healed enough to play with!

The downside of piercing myself was that things could have gone wrong very easily and quickly. I was prepared to take that chance as it was very important to me that I did the piercing myself. It is also something that if I didn't do them straight etc. I only wanted myself to blame. As it turns out, it was easier than I thought, and they seem to be perfectly aligned.

If you've ever been turned on by the sight of pierced nipples, or the thought of having them, but were scared of the pain, then sure, it hurts a bit, but nothing like what I was expecting. I say go for it!